Delusions

And other realities of taking risks

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Am I delusional?

Am I insane?

Why is this echoing in my brain?

I saw the cautions,

I heard the concerns,

I listened.

I still leapt.

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But where, exactly was my first misstep?

Did I confuse courage with calculated stupidity?

Did I mistake bravery for pride?

Is confidence something that is best left to hide?

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I did not arrive here by mistake or by chance, let’s not forget.

And yet here I find myself, buried in risk and regret.

My desires were pure,

But then, why did I fall for a lure?

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I look at my self-to-self in the mirror,

Wanting to know if the truth could be clearer.

Wanting to believe that my dreams are dear,

Despite the overwhelming distortions and the fear.

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Who is responsible for the distortions?

Is it me or is it the mirror?

I lean in closer to see

And that is when the mirror confronts me.

With my own biggest fears:

Are you delusional?

Are you insane?

What are those voices ringing in your brain?